Wish I may

Wish I may:

My buddy said you said hi
I could almost feel your excitement pulsating from him when he said it

I wish I had never known of you

I stood there looking at you
Honestly I didn’t think you were anything special
But there was a strange energy you gave off
It was off-putting

I wish I had never seen you

One day we finally met
You were so fun and full of energy
But you were awkward in the same non awkward way like me
Our night wasn’t perfect
Neither were you
nor was I
I pushed the idea of you away from me, I thought I felt nothing
But somehow I couldn’t seem to push it far enough
I wish I had never met you
The next day I felt regret
The night was so terrible; nothing could ever come of it
Right?
No, you plagued my mind
I couldn’t get you out
So I tried to talk to you more
You were cool
You are so cool
The coolest

I wish I had never done that

Talking to you was so natural
I wanted to talk to you more and more
I would feel scared too
But you would always show me I had nothing to fear
We talked and talked, it was so great
But I soon started to feel
Oh the crap
Why did I have to feel
The more I learned of you
The more I ….
l-l…
Fuck
What’s the point in pretending
I loved you
Hell, I still love you
The feeling is so strong
I knew how bad it was
But it only grew stronger
And I wanted to grow closer
So I told you

Heh, I really wish I didn’t do that

I guess I was right to do it
It was not only “good” for me
But it was in respect of you in a way
You deserved to know the whole story
And you were very respectful about it
You did not feel the same way
But you didn’t put me down
Somehow you still managed to show how smart you were too
And this made me love you more
I didn’t talk to you for a while
But I couldn’t just leave you
We were still friends…
Right?
Just because I couldn’t get to be with you
Didn’t mean I had to just leave you
So… I tried talking to you again
As friends …
Right?

You wish I hadn’t done that... right

I greeted you like I always had
You responded
But never like you used too
I felt it
It hurt
Badly
…
After a while it stopped
You didn’t respond
I don’t know if I’m glad you did or not
I just know that I… still loved you
But this has taught me that

I hate that I love you
I wish I didn’t…


That was a lie.

When I first met you I felt like I was alone
But when I was away from you I couldn’t help to want to be with you
How we met was kind of surreal…
I dunno
Maybe I’m just a hopeless romantic
But so are you …
See surreal
…
What’s ironic is that when I was away from you I feel more with you
You haunt my every thought
Your presence is everywhere go
I can’t seem to get away from you

You’re so…
Wonderful.

I wish I had never known you…
I really do